What do you do when thing goes wrong? What do you do when your life turned upside down? do you get enraged? do you stop?
I wish I am one of you, who stop and ponder on what to do next! Life is a mystery, I wonder if any of us gets to understand (really) the purpose of life. Marriage (ticked), having kids? (ticked), happiness (was ticked)... everything else is ticked; is life is about ticking the box in your checklists (job done?); or do God have other plan greater than life itself??
My heart is in trouble, my marriage is in trouble. Life that I expected long ago didn't go well according to plan (my plan not God's plan), again, if God already know what my future takes then why did He forsake me? Reach out to me O God, for I am weak! (Psalms 69) Save me, O God! The water is up to my neck; I am sinking in deep mud, and there is no solid ground; I am out in deep water, and the waves are about to drown me. I am worn out from calling for help, and my throat is aching. I have strained my eyes, looking for your help.
I cry aloud to God; I cry aloud, and he hears me. In times of trouble I pray to the Lord; all night long I lift my hands in prayer, but I cannot find comfort. When I think of God, I sigh; when I meditate, I feel discouraged. He keeps me awake all night; I am so worried that I cannot speak. I think of days gone by and remember years of long ago. I spend the night in deep thought; I meditate, and this is what I ask myself: Will the Lord always reject us? Will he never again be pleased with us? Has He stopped loving us? Does His promise no longer stand? Has God forgotten to be merciful? Has anger taken the place of His compassion? Then I said "What hurts me more is this - that God is no longer powerful."
Teach me, Lord, what you want me to do, and I will obey you faithfully; teach me to serve you with complete devotion. I will praise you with all my heart, O Lord my God; I will proclaim your greatness forever. How great is your constant love for me! You have saved me from grave itself.
And should God grants me what I desire; would I obey or would I go stray?
I wish I am one of you, who stop and ponder on what to do next! Life is a mystery, I wonder if any of us gets to understand (really) the purpose of life. Marriage (ticked), having kids? (ticked), happiness (was ticked)... everything else is ticked; is life is about ticking the box in your checklists (job done?); or do God have other plan greater than life itself??
My heart is in trouble, my marriage is in trouble. Life that I expected long ago didn't go well according to plan (my plan not God's plan), again, if God already know what my future takes then why did He forsake me? Reach out to me O God, for I am weak! (Psalms 69) Save me, O God! The water is up to my neck; I am sinking in deep mud, and there is no solid ground; I am out in deep water, and the waves are about to drown me. I am worn out from calling for help, and my throat is aching. I have strained my eyes, looking for your help.
I cry aloud to God; I cry aloud, and he hears me. In times of trouble I pray to the Lord; all night long I lift my hands in prayer, but I cannot find comfort. When I think of God, I sigh; when I meditate, I feel discouraged. He keeps me awake all night; I am so worried that I cannot speak. I think of days gone by and remember years of long ago. I spend the night in deep thought; I meditate, and this is what I ask myself: Will the Lord always reject us? Will he never again be pleased with us? Has He stopped loving us? Does His promise no longer stand? Has God forgotten to be merciful? Has anger taken the place of His compassion? Then I said "What hurts me more is this - that God is no longer powerful."
Teach me, Lord, what you want me to do, and I will obey you faithfully; teach me to serve you with complete devotion. I will praise you with all my heart, O Lord my God; I will proclaim your greatness forever. How great is your constant love for me! You have saved me from grave itself.
And should God grants me what I desire; would I obey or would I go stray?
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