Reminiscing my youth memories, the importance in my life. I came to know Jesus in a young age and sure I fell in love with Him instantly but in rebellious way. I was baptised when I was only a few months old, not old enough to understand how great this gift was to me. But I reckon, it's better that way just to avoid (me) asking too many questions. In a way, I accepted Christianity without knowing a single thing. Of course later on I attended Church every Sunday without fail, not because I understand the reasons why but because my Mom and Dad's thinks it is compulsory for Catholic to go to church. I would get involved with the reading of Bibles, singing in the choir and general helping here and there because I would get praised or compliments by doing so. No doubt, I have the voice to follow tunes (not as great as my stage freak... LOL). In all honesty, I am still lost. No one has ever directed me the path (right) or should I say, I was waiting for something great to happen so I would understand, God's gracious love and His wonderful works, work?!
And then, Confirmation came along. I was in Grade 3, more rebellious than ever. All I care about was the bestest white dress I would wear, shoes to match and showing off all that jazz! Would God look at me differently? I doubt not! None of my family attended my confirmation day. I am used to not having any of my relatives attending any of my 'big day' so to speak. My godmother? I don't even remember! Bless her. So I graduated (or confirmed) as Christian (Catholic), PTL (Praise the Lord). Have my outlook on God changed? perhaps a little bit.
Even now, I feel so lonely, alone in His mercy... what am I waiting for? Lost in deep trouble, I am still reaching out for help.
Why then, the more I become closer to Jesus, the more troubles I endure? So help me God, save my soul!
And then, Confirmation came along. I was in Grade 3, more rebellious than ever. All I care about was the bestest white dress I would wear, shoes to match and showing off all that jazz! Would God look at me differently? I doubt not! None of my family attended my confirmation day. I am used to not having any of my relatives attending any of my 'big day' so to speak. My godmother? I don't even remember! Bless her. So I graduated (or confirmed) as Christian (Catholic), PTL (Praise the Lord). Have my outlook on God changed? perhaps a little bit.
Even now, I feel so lonely, alone in His mercy... what am I waiting for? Lost in deep trouble, I am still reaching out for help.
Why then, the more I become closer to Jesus, the more troubles I endure? So help me God, save my soul!
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